July 18, 2011

• The Social Butterfly

  I think am hoping it is a good sign that I'm extremely dissatisfied going to sleep with such a negative post.  Pessimistic Christa is so last month, brah.  'Tis the season for awesome Christa.

  But things are going to get even harder starting tomorrow.  It's gonna be a rough few weeks ahead, for a variety of reasons.  I'm trying to brace myself for it, but easier said than done.  I'm unsure how I'm going to handle the rest of summer, but I just know that I have to.  I really don't know what I'm going to do, but I know that I'm going to get through it somehow.  Eventually, summer will be over.  Time passes.  Just have to keep that in mind.  I don't know how, but I'll get through this... somehow.

  But on a good(?) note, something really weird happened to me the other day.

  "Christa, you're such a social butterfly!"

  Huh?

  Are you kidding me?  I mean, I spent six years with "shypie" as my nickname, and now you're calling me a social butterfly?  I really don’t think I've ever been called that in my entire life.  Ever.  Me, a social butterfly?  I heard those words, and I was like, "Okay, back up. What?"

  But I guess there is actually a pattern happening, because just a few days before that, I got a, "Christa, you really like meeting new people, don't you?"

  ...Huh?

  Just less than two months ago, meeting new people was probably the scariest shit you could ask me to do, besides possibly swallowing fire.  Possibly.  It's a close call, though. What, introduce myself?  What, mingle?  These are foreign words to me.  What is a.. socialize?  ...Can you eat it?  Well, anyway, I'll just sit here awkwardly and quietly, thank you very much.

  That was two months ago.

  Now, I introduced myself as, "I'm sorry, I'm actually really shy, so this is mustering a lot of courage for me!"  And you know what happened?  NO ONE IN THE ROOM BELIEVED ME.  What is happening?!  Then the weirder thing is hanging out with someone, and I'm one whispering in her ear, "AWW, I KNOW YOU SHY, BUT YOU CAN DO IT, I AM HERE FOR YOU, LET'S STICK TOGETHER, BUDDY!"  Or at least... kind of whisper.  Whispers do not do pep talks justice!  

  Then, I went to the advanced screening of Harry Potter on Thursday, and I saw my Organic Chemistry TA.  We weren't close, we weren't friends, but we would just greet each other in the halls every now and then because he recognized me from his class.  But I saw that he went to see the movie by himself, and I enthusiastically told my friends that I wanted to invite him to sit with us, so that he wouldn't watch by himself.  My friends all found me odd, and one housemate thought it was so outlandish that she went, "I DARE YOU, CHRISTA!"  But I just ran across the theater to invite him to sit with my friends and me, no biggie.  So we sat next to each other, I shared my popcorn with him, and chatted with him until the movie started.  I was happy that he sat with us; he was adorbz and kept sitting at the edge of his seat because he was so into the movie.  Then he thanked me for inviting him to sit with my group, and we parted ways.

  Then I realized what happened and I'm wondering now if I'm in the frickin' Twilight Zone.

  I realized...

  that wasn't...

  BEING SHY!

  O_O!!!!!!!!!!!!

  hot damn!

  I'm starting to wonder, if at this rate, I'll actually someday take off "shy" from my list of characteristics.  It's evidently happening under my nose though, because people keep telling me I'm outgoing, and I still go, "wtf u talkin' 'bout?"

  But can you imagine?  Christa, not shy?

  Me neither.  

  But apparently that shit is happening.

  Cool beans.

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