June 30, 2011

  • I need to get my boss game up.

    I'm pretty much a huge spaz, I'm endlessly awkward, I overshare to the max, I'm pretty desperate, and that hopeless optimist in me is itching to come out again.  I'm currently a pessimist and an optimist rolled into one burrito.  Sometimes I look outside the window and I look at everyone around me and the world just seems so beautiful and amazing, and other times I think of Phuc and then I miss him so much and then it's just OTL the whole time.  But I honestly think I'm getting worse in terms of getting over Phuc.  Recently I've just been missing him more and more.  I know it's only been a month, but still.  I'd rather just be.. okay.  You know?  Instead of all this, "give it time, woman" whatnot.  I'm so impatient.  I just want it to be like poof, now I'm all better.  but i miss heem.  t.t  Sometimes I fall to my knees and yell out Phuc's name "STELLAAA" style.  LOL JK.  But srsly, I actually really really miss him.  Story of my life, amirite?  Sigh.

    But my lab experience abruptly got supremely busy after finally meeting with the professor today, and she promptly dumped a huge binder full of papers and three textbooks on me to read up on for background information.  And I got a flood of e-mails with additional papers that I should read.  And she wants this all read by next week!  And I need to go to a microscopy class and a consortium meeting tomorrow!  And omg! AAAAAAA WTF.  But I worked with Mr. Supervisor for the first time today, and I never knew that filtering water could be so fun!  He kept teasing me that he couldn't tell if I was being sarcastic or sincere in my excitement about filtering water and preparing PBS stock solutions, but secretly I was really having the time of my life.  Also I couldn't tell if his laugh was sincere or mocking when I said, "Time to boss this PBS!!!"  But I could not imagine being more enthusiastic about doing unit conversions.  He made it so exciting, I felt like I was Indiana Jones of the stock solutions.  Goooood stuff!  I know that all I really did was read and do chores, but I still feel like I had a good day in the lab.  And then read more and more and more.  I'm actually taking a break from reading right now, so shhhhhh, don't tell my professor! @_@!!

    NVM NEED TO GO BACK TO READING

    i guess i will save interesting things for later lol