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FUH FOUR DAYS BEFORE THE 28TH NOW, IMMA CRY SO BAD NEXT TUESDAY YOU GUYS

Some really good, promising stuff is goin' on about my depression but I don't wanna put my bunnies in a basket yet so I'm going to hold up and leave that open-ended for now!

AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT: Regular everyday blog content.

I know, you're like "WHAT? I DIDN'T SIGN UP TO READ BORING STUFF ABOUT YOUR NORMAL LIFE CHRISTA, I WANNA SEE MORE GUTS AND GORE, RAGE" WELL SUCK IT UP BROMIGO COS IT'S HAPPENING

Well, I'm starting research this Monday!  Weeeee!  I am super excited and nervous all at the same time.  I've been doing just orientation for the past two weeks and I'm finally starting research on Monday.  I met with my post-doc mentor today before he leaves for vacation in Spain for a month, and he assigned me some literature homework and he told me the rundown and it sounded like more than I can chew!  I might have to develop experiment protocols and create protein markers on my own accord while he is on vacation, both of which I'm pretty wtf about how to approach.  But he believes in me and he said he is going to be very supportive of me~  I learned that everyone in my group is required to present our research at a national conference at some point in the year, and I'll be required to submit a manuscript of my research for publication at the end of the year, so I have been pretty, "dude this internship is crazy" all day.  But my lab has been soooo sweet and they're giving me such a big head! They've actually been jumping through hoops to get me in their lab, rather than the other way around!  I found out that they've been really working hard to get the lab ready for meeee.  >.< I think they have super high expectations for me because instead of assigning me to a grad student like most of the other undergrads, they assigned me to a post-doc and the head lab supervisor to be my personal mentooorsssss.  And I am just like OMG I MUST DO WELL IN THIS LAB OMGOMGOMGOMG

My internship has also been giving me a big head because the group just goes craaazy whenever I give a presentation! ;o;! Today we were having a discussion on how our presentation projects went, and one girl said, "Okay this isn't a question but I need to say that CHRISTA, YOU ARE SO GOOD!" And then I blushed big!! >.< And when we were exchanging presentation advice, the professor said, "Have a big smile, like Christa!" then I smiled and then the whole table giggled!  And then on the insides I was all n_______n!  I've been needing more self-esteem and this has been helping lol! >.< I so shypie about it thoughhh!

I also took my first nap in almost two weeks today, and it felt pretty damn cool.  But I realized I've been forgetting to take my medicine so I was really nauseous today at work! bad stuff waa!! So I didn't go to the gym even though I wanted tooo~

anndddd... OH

My school got a free advanced screening for the last Harry Potter movie!  My housemate and I are really excited about it~!  We're going to try to have the entire house go see the movie together, and my +1 might be my buddy from yesterday if things go right!  And I hope they go right because I really want friends LOL! orz!!!  I was supposed to go with Phuc to see it, but it's nice that now the movie won't just have purely sad connotations now that I have a good group of friends to go with instead~ n_n

also i want ice ceeeem

EXTREMELY NONPRODUCTIVE POST, HOY