Month: June 2013

  • a new world

    SUPER MEGA LIFE-CHANGING ANNOUNCEMENT: I'll be relocating my primary blog to http://becauseitsdelicious.tumblr.com -- details below!

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    In our Relationships unit of PSY 131: Social Psychology, we learned that in a breakup, the amount of distress that you face depends on who ends the relationship.

    “Breakers generally experience the least stress, along with fewer negative physical symptoms (headaches, insomnia, etc.)

    Breakees experience the highest amount of stress, as well as loneliness, depression, and have high levels of physical disorders

    Mutual breakups were in between the two. So if you ever find yourself getting dumped, make sure you tell your partner (and yourself!) that it was mutual and you will experience less distress.”

    This admittedly would’ve been extremely useful information a few years ago, but I am now choosing to not squander this sound advice.

    Except this time, I’m having a mutual breakup with my Xanga.

    It’s now a very real possibility that Xanga will be shutting down, and I’ll be honest — my Xanga is one of my oldest and dearest relationships.  My heart has been located at xanga.com/jounouchilvr since November 24th, 2002.  These pages archive my memories and my lifelong growth.  It was a difficult decision for me to make, considering that Xanga's fundraising efforts have another month left in store.  But, I've been following it for the last few weeks, and the outlook is unfortunately pessimistic on my side.

    It’s funny that Xanga may be shutting down around the same time as my college graduation.

    It’s like life wants me to grow up, in every spectrum of my life.

    With that, I sadly find myself at a “mutual breakup” with Xanga — as Xanga may have to leave, I have to do the same, too.

    If you still want to follow my blogs, I am tentatively relocating the story of my life to http://becauseitsdelicious.tumblr.com — previously, my poetry blog. Before that, my conversations with Phuc blog.  And before that, my random quotes from The Office blog.  But, other than Xanga, it’s the blog that I’ve had the longest, and seemed like an appropriate venue to relocate to.

    Fortunately, Xanga has been allowing full blog archival, and my last eleven years of blogging aren’t lost, but are now tucked away in my hard drive.  I’ll be sure to have lame awesome throwback posts where I can continue to share my old memories with you all, just like back in the day when Xanga was hot stuff.

    With that, this entry will be the last blog post of jounouchilvr.xanga.com, and will also be the first new post-poetry blog post of becauseitsdelicious.tumblr.com.

    I’ll miss you, Xanga.

  • 2011-2012, from the eyes of my agenda

    This is a continuation of my last blog post, where I just wanted to jot down anything jot-worthy from my 2010-2011 weekly planner.  

    This is actually when I blogged the most, because the first semester of this is all during my overcoming of my break-up and my depression!  So I thought it was really interesting to see it in this light.  Mostly I just talk about my lab and my friends. :) It's kind of cute!  It's also a little nostalgic, because just like in '10-'11, there's name tha

    Another interesting thing (maybe... "interesting" is not the right word) is that I was way more organized and active in my 2011-2012 planner than in my 2010-2011.

    This was the average week in '10...

    While this was the average week in '11...

    Whew, what lab does to a girl!  My agenda upkeep falls a lot in Spring semester, and I'm not totally sure why -- if it's because I got into the groove of lab, or if it's the same as my Xanga, where I even plan less when I have close friends to talk with, let alone blog less.  My god.

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    06/24/2011: Dusty's 30th birthday!

    06/27/2011: (my first day of lab!) lab 325, TC room 323, prep alpha-mem media, rinse buffer prep, Ab prep, practice aspirating plates, "you'll get it, rookie"

    06/30/2011: Confocal Microscopy Class, "you're doing really great and i'm really happy to have you in the lab" - Heather

    07/01/2011: independently fed corey's cells with una, flow cytometry w/ Heather until midnight!!!

    07/05/2011: corey said i'm doing great! :) freeze cells with corey, Taco Tuesday

    07/06/2011: Morrell's 20th birthday

    07/07/2011: cycling w/ Lia @ 5:30 pm (most of the interns went to the gym together! it was pretty cute)

    07/13/2011: watch SYTYCD with cathy, then hang out with morrell!

    08/01/2011: jesus comes back from spain!

    08/03/2011: Manilay Breakfast (my first one! we had these every semester.)

    08/04/2011: Undergraduate Summer Research Symposium (that's when this gem took place)

    05/05/2011: Bryce drove me home! "black it up," glasses + denial, "Jesús is more beautiful than me!" (lol none of that makes sense out of context so i have no idea what most of that means)

    08/08/2011: Christa that's b/c you're hardcore!

    08/09/2011: pep talk from the lab -- Jesús: "I'm very glad to be working with you!"; Corey: "You blew it out of the park.  We all think you're worth keeping around."

    08/17/2011: Heather's birthday!

    08/19/2011: M

    08/26/2011: Sal!

    08/29/2011: Start IFA with Jesús, Hello Kitty from Sal! :)

    08/31/2011: Cornell gets my name!!

    09/01/2011: "You'll always be the rookie!" - Corey

    09/04/2011: "can you show me on the board" (???... christa, provide more context for these quotes you randomly save and set aside)

    09/12/2011: "So you have been cheating me!  Here I am, I've been trying to throw my knowledge at you" (when i quietly listened to my post-doc train me in something that I already knew), "the plate my beautiful student made!"

    09/13/2011: Liza's birthday!

    09/14/2011: "You know what you're worth, so never settle for anything less."
    "What if I left?"
    "It would break my heart."
    "I don't wanna break your heart."
    "I know. I know. It's okay. It's okay."
    "Would you wait for me?"
    ...

    09/22/2011: Una's birthday!  And Moria (my lab TA) says happy birthday to her!

    09/23/2011: dinner party @ 7 :)

    09/24/2011: Omer's birthday!

    09/29/2011: "You did a great job today!"

    10/10/2011: give Bryce birthday gift!

    10/11/2011: Jaymie's 20th birthday

    10/21/2011: Sock Hop! :) Go with Una!

    10/29/2011: UCSF Grad School Seminar (where i learned about scripps!)

    11/10/2011: hella creepy old guy @ Psych talk (lol someone in a psych seminar stared at me the entire seminar, and it became a point of discussion with all the other interns for the next few days)

    11/15/2011: Sat with Luke :) (after this, we had a tradition of having breakfast together every tuesday and thursday morning before our classes)

    11/16/2011: studied with morrell, ZAP! i command you to move on

    11/17/2011: dHOP with Cesar + Annie & Co.

    11/18/2011: won Israel in the Theta Tau fundraiser!

    11/19/2011: lunch with morrell, drew's thanksgiving dinner, and nancy's thanksgiving dinner... whew!

    11/21/2011: gossip with alex about boys LOL

    11/30/2011: watch big bang theory with steven!

    12/02/2011: UC Merced Winter Formal! 

    12/04/2011: Mom's birthday, Sal's birthday, Date-A-Tau Fundraiser w/ Israel, study date with Steven!

    12/06/2011: ended it with Sal. study w/ steven until 4 am!

    12/07/2011: showed to viri lol, hug from Bryce! :)

    12/08/2011: showed to Luke LOL

    12/10/2011: Choir Concert, buy flowers in the morning

    12/13/2011: glasses broke!! wore contacts for the first time

    12/16/2011: house christmas dinner!

    12/20/2011: Manilay Lab Breakfast

    (After this semester, I start using my agenda much less, and it starts looking as empty as my 2010-2011 planner.)

    01/06/2012: NCUR 2012 acceptance letters sent AND I GOT ACCEPTED :)

    01/07/2012: my 21st birthday!

    01/31/2012: MCCM - best friends.

    02/25/2012: "Give Morrell Money" (not written in my handwriting...)

    03/03/2012: "Bake a cake for Morrell"

    03/10/2012: "Cookies! for Morrell."

    03/17/2012: "Ice cream, cookie cake! for Morrell"

    03/24/2012: "Give Morrell MONEY"

    03/27/2012: Go to Utah lol

    03/31/2012: "Worship Morrell & pay tribute"

    04/13/2012: CCRS in Fresno!

    04/21/2012: Loyola with Morrell!

    05/19/2012: "Sacrificial tribute to Morrell (a young virgin)" (lol wtf man)

    07/01/2012: "Booga!"

  • 2010-2011, from the eyes of my agenda

    As I'm unpacking from Merced, I'm sorting through all my things, and I decided that it was time to throw away my old school agendas.  Before throwing out my 2010-2011 agenda, I wanted to jot down the dates that seemed worth noting and worth keeping, whether it's because something sounds important or if it's simply for the lulz.  I did this before with a past agenda, but lost the information when my computer crashed.  So this time, why not just post it on Xanga?

    For context, during this time, I was a sophomore in college, still living in the on-campus dorms.  I was still dating Phuc until the very end of the agenda.  I was still in the process of joining the Manilay Lab.  This is all during the peak of my mental and emotional struggles, although very little of that is ever mentioned.

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    lol every few days has: "got toilet paper from housing office today"

    August 24, 2010: cricket jumped on me

    September 2, 2013: return non-cute purse to walmart

    September 3-4, 2013: sacanime!

    September 16, 2010: omg today sucked. can't find ipod, late to class, missed breakfast, forgot ochem notebook, didn't know hw was due until 3 hours before it was due, but most of all: "I'm not gonna text you if you're gonna be like this." :(

    holy crap i was still in the red cross club. this is forever ago.

    November 3, 2010: pay speeding ticket D: and register for traffic school (my first speeding ticket, and luckily my only one since then!)

    January 18, 2011: 31 more days!

    January 20, 2011: watch inception with michelle

    February 12, 2011: Meeting for House @ 1 pm (about to live with who'd become some of my best friends!)

    March 2, 2011: Manilay Lab Interview at 3 PM

    March 18, 2011: Dr. Appt for sleepiness

    March 25, 2011: bay van le's funeral and burial

    March 28, 2011: Davis <3, namaste, orange chicken, "rub mah belleh", minecraft mushroom

    March 29, 2011: bio extra credit at noon i'd rather get lunch

    April 1, 2011: counseling appt

    April 4, 2011: construct cravings list (advice from therapy)

    April 8, 2011: Enderle at UCM!

    April 12, 2011: revelations in christianity (???)

    April 22, 2011: Hang out with Joeve and Daniel!  Tomi Sushi, told Joeve lol (??? wut.. wut did i tell her?), Greek dinner, sooo bloated

    April 23, 2011: Mission Peak Hike (omg i died on this hike), Thai dinner!!, Korean lunch with Pat, food coma & nap, ginger :(

    April 25, 2011: Jesús is assigned as my mentor in the Manilay Lab!

    April 29, 2011: Vienna Teng Concert in Grass Valley @ 8:00 PM - AMAZING

    May 4, 2011: COEHD final presentations, 3-7:30 PM, CA room - mandatory!! (where i met morrell for the first time!)

    June 1, 2011: COEHD - 18 applications, 13 interviews, 9 selected

    (June 9, 2011: Nothing is written here, but it's an important day! huehuehue i so mysteriouz)

    June 13, 2011: COEHD First Meeting, S&E 300

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    Next: my 2011-2012 agenda! XD