"If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away."

- Henry David Thoreau

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I was at work when I heard the news.

My reaction was synonymous with panic.  So when I heard the news that you passed away,  I had to keep a smile on my face for the rest of the work day.  I didn't know what to do.  My heart sank, and I missed you.  I always wanted to get to know you more, but now I'll never have the chance.

Meanwhile, I worried desperately for your family and loved ones.  I wanted to mourn with someone, but everyone is so far away.  I don't remember the last time that I felt so surrounded by people, yet so alone.  I can't believe your face is one that I'll never see again.

I wish I took advantage of the chance to know you more than I knew you.  You were so kind to me, even back then, when I had no one.  Thank you for those days when you would help me bring my laundry up to my dorm, and for our friendly conversations during your work shifts.  You helped make the days not so lonely, and the evenings not so long.

Rest in peace, Nathalie.  I hope your life received as much love and kindness as you gave away.