'Allo!
So I was watching Bruce Almighty on TV again the other day, and I watched the scene where Jim Carrey tries to make Jennifer Aniston love him again, but can't, because he can't control free will. Then it struck me: how "free will" is love?
Sure, it made the plot for Bruce Almighty a lot more thick and interesting, but how often can people freely will themselves into loving someone, or even into stop loving someone? I know much more than a handful of people who want to will their hearts away from loving someone anymore, but can't regardless of their efforts, and even a few people who truly want to fall in love with that wonderful, amazing person, but they just can't ever see them in that light. As heard in every piece of love advice, every romantic movie, and under every rock, "You can't control the way you feel." And according to Bruce Almighty, neither can God.
But if God can't control love, who can?!
So love can strut around doing whatever it wants! The audacity of it! Love is running wild; someone, hurry, tame it! But love evades us, always sneaking around our minds and building hide-outs in our hearts. You can catch it, even accidentally, but its spirit is wild... kind of like that horse from Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron. And like the horse from that Spirit movie, if you turn around, if you let go, if you neglect it, if you doubt your conviction, if you don't treat love the way it deserves to be treated, even for a second, love will roundhouse kick everyone in the building and slip out of your fingers. Love is complex like that.
But when all else fails, turn to Jason Mraz: "It takes no time to fall in love, but it takes you years to know what love is."
True that. After three years strong with Phuc, I'm still barely grasping what love is. But I do know that the feelings that I feel when I look at him, and the feelings I feel when he looks at me, are everything but in my control.
But dang, Bruce Almighty is a good movie.
as the world keeps spinning 'round, you hold me right here, right now
Bye for now!