hecks. flippin. yes.

That's right.

Yesterday, ON THE BEST DAY OF THE MONTH EVER  (for the sixth month now, seventh including that very first day), I went to Opening Night of the school musical, Once On This Island, with the Phucmeister<3 aka CRAZY OLD MAN-to-be.  (yeah, that's right.)  Super awesome.  Afterwards, I gave everyone squealy, bouncy hugs of congrats.  I feel like watching the musical again.

In addition to those two marvelous tidbits, things have been pretty spiffy on my side of the universe, with Pelon Pelo Rico tamarind candy in hand.  I just came back from a journey to the local Auction City Flea Market once again, coming back with even more socks, cheap expired medicine, battery-free flashlights, nail polish, a tummy full of nachos, and a pear tree.  Not to mention make-up that I never even use.  While there, I saw this girl, about my age and with the unique look of a crowd-defying individual, who I found myself involuntary stalking.  She would go to different stands, pick up something seemingly random, and demand, "This product looks absolutely mediocre.  Persuade me on why I should buy this."  There would be maybe a five-minute verbal rally in which in every instant, she walked away without buying a thing, looking very confident and happy that she just wasted someone's time.  I mention this because I SO want to do that one day now.  Haha. 

Today's random smily moment:
Today's not-so-random-once-you-really-think-about-it Google picture moment:

Today's lesson: Laughter has a healing quality to it.

you got me right where you want me--i ain't nothin' but your fool

Bye for now.

Hellooo.

 I finally stopped missing out on half my life and watched Dead Poet's Society in class Monday.  It so made me cry!  However, in a tad of scenarios while trying not to spoil the plot, Neil, the main boy whose father restricted him from his dreams, everything about him from his beginning to his end, felt like a hugely intensified--in terms of strictness, values, and situations--of my life thus far.  That night, I had a dream that I took the same choice that Neil did.  God forbid I ever do, and this is a scary thought, but I can actually imagine myself taking that fightful step, especially in a delicate world where "freedom is the freedom to say two plus two is four.  If that is granted, all else follows."  And if that freedom is not met, "give me liberty or give me death!"

Today's the Day of Silence, so I observed it during school.  I spoke on four occasions--when Ms. Ota called on me and after a lot of hesitation and the class assuming that I just didn't know the answer, when there was a stray hair on Krizthal's back and I picked it, when a huge debate in class happened and I talked to Krizthal about it, and when I was walking down the aisle in class and called Arriell "Christa".  But besides that, I was really set on it, on supporting the cause of protesting discrimination against the LGBT community.  

And maybe it's the stereotypical way of how I'm from the Bay Area, but I came from a place where most of the people I know were either strongly or partially Pro-Same Sex Marriage or at least indecisive on it.  So it was a change coming here in Sacramento, where I witnessed my first Anti-Same Sex Marriage Protests and my first peers in the extreme of being against it.  On that note, when a huge yelling and people-storming-out-of-the-room debate started in Geometry, it was definitely an awkward moment for me, in the way that I had just been "talking" a.k.a super duper note-writing about the topic, the way that I didn't have the nerve to step in and used Day of Silence as an excuse, and the way that, well, I've been through a moment of bisexual thoughts for about two years in Middle School, so it was definitely strange to have been told "If you're a guy and you like guys or if you're a girl and you like girls, I'm not sorry and you're going to Hell.  That's it, and that's how it goes."  And yeah, that was me coming out of the closet on xanga; I will be pondering for hours after I write this on whether to edit that out or not, haha.  On the other hand, there were plenty a people staying silent like me, such as Phuc, Mandy, and Lisa.  Almost as often, there were people telling me about how proud they were of me for what I was doing.  Mind you, I'm proud of myself too.

Today's lesson: Have faith.  It'll take you places.

one gift, one lift, one stance, one shift, one way, one day

Bye for now.

Yoo.

Happy Take a Chance Day/Lover's Day!  D

Today, blogging is a form of ::gasp gasp:: procrastinating from memorizing poems for English Floating Block.  >.> Okay, fine.  ::takes out poem::  Okay, four minutes later, I got the first stanza--"You never asked me about my favorite color, my first love, the holes in my heart, the state of the--" um, yeah.  Whatnot to that effect. 

On a bit of a geeky note, I was playing Dance Dance Revolution (yes i'm so after the phase) and attempted Dynamite Rave in Maniac.  I finally did NOT fail.  I actually got a C.  SO AWESOME.  DDR is interestingly, while being banned from leaving the house or stepping into the backyard, my only means of cardiovascular exercise as of late.  Piquuu.  Phys Ed's over at school, and I remember what happened last year!  With no more PE, I became a lazy bum and chubbed up.  As I find losing five million pounds as unrealistic, I'm aiming to at least NOT be a pot full of jelly this year!  Ar ar ar!  That's my really late new year's resolution.  xD  But seeing the current state of my tummy, that's not going too hot.  ::does sit-ups::

Haha.  I was actually trying to well, make a new layout for my ol' pal Jounouchilvr, when I realized that I lost Photoshop in the great Computer Meltdown of '04, and that well, I've lost all HTML handiness over the two years.  XD  I'm hecka good.  Y'all will just have to love Fei Fong ong a while longer.  Unless I get really cheap and just use an old layout.  Or steal a layout I've made for someone else.  Then we'll see.  :]

In my running theme of having awkward ways to end entries, ARRR I'M A PIRATE

Today's lesson: Persistance is 9/10ths of any skill.

i've got too much life running through my veins that's going to waste

Bye for now.

Yo!

D Happy Earth Day!

Forty-eight days a.k.a. thirty-five school days left of my freshman year at Monterey Trail High School.  Roughly eight months have passed since I started attending, and so many things have changed since then.  And regardless, I earnestly think that it was just yesterday that the very idea of being in high school and 150 miles away from my hometown sank in.  I was walking from second period through a crowded quad to give Phuc a giant hug, when I felt abruptly insecure at the faces and the elbows shoving about.  On the first day of high school, the mixed feelings were purely at the thought of being at a new school with unfamiliar people.  Yesterday, after getting a short flashback of being five years old and getting a piggyback from my dad, it was different.  It was like being a child waking up as a teenager.  There's this really undescribable quality to that.

Today, I went to the Auction City Flea Market in Sacramento, which I liked.  It's a lot smaller than the one in San Jose Capitol Ave, but I liked the way that there was no place there that you didn't hear blaring Hip-Hop or Mariachi music, and the air had a smell unique to markets such as these.  On a more casual note, all I bought were socks, nachos, and candy. 

That's all, folks.

Today's lesson: Have more faith than religion allows you to.

when the hour is upon us, and our beauty surely gone.. no, you will not be forgotten, and you will not be alone.

Bye for now.

Heyy!

teenage rant moment:

Joeveee!  There was this one puzzle at open house and i totally whupped butt cos I like did a whole bunch of it in like 15 minutes (that's me tootin my own horn, but dammit i'm proud) but then it was already pretty started but I swear I did a lot!  and see joeve, see see see I can do puzzles remember that one time that we kept saying that i totally was never going to do it and then i bought a whole bunch of puzzles and well.. never did them and well i think i'm going to go back into that phase because A) I'm in the zone/groove/something and B) they're cheaper than buying CD's and video games therefore C) I WILL PROVE THOU WRONGST and achiiieve my puzzle-piecing DREAAM. 

Okay that's now going on my list of "Things to Do Before I Die."

• Complete a puzzle

Sí.

It's moments like those that my absolute immaturity becomes apparent.

Anyhoo, STAR Testing, the "standardized testing and r-word that I can't remember at the moment..review?" that takes place statewide in CA anually from grades 1-11 to assess knowledge learned over the course of the year to keep track of how well the students are being taught (CA-ians, I'm making this clarification because of the PEOPLE IN OTHER STATES THAT NEVER HAD TO DO THIS CRAP ::cough::hukaru::cough::), has now officially made its presence in my school.  It's taking place over two weeks on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and it's making me a tad sad, nix the minumum days and breaks/iwanttocallit'recess' with really cool people, because it is student nature to dislike tests and exams.  I think I did pretty good on the Math part, but anything goes with English.  OMG.  So next Tuesday I'm tackling Biology, and Thursday's a free day. 

The recent run-down: I'm becoming re-infatuated with Starbucks again, and I have this NEED for Xenogears, and thus I thirst to visit the town Flea Market because no one dang sells PSX games anymore.  I'm  now bent on making my nails not look like crap, and I need to do about 5 million sit-ups.

Good day to you too.

Today's lesson: Sometimes, in times of distress, a friend who'll listen or who'll just care at all will more than suffice as medicine for the heart.

i got the message, but i didn't hear the ringing bell

Bye for now.

Heyy!

I apologize for no updates.  It's not that I've been at a lack of words, I've just been well, excruciatingly lazy.  So this is a more exceptionally longer entry.

Spring break has been pretty eventful for me due to the sole fact that it's the first time I've had fresh air in a while besides within the gates of school.  Monday was a bouncing between an Indian Casino and various little places in Elk Grove, and Tuesday was Arden Mall followed by a lengthy nap in the truck, waiting to go home.  I know how to live adventure. 

Let's recap!

Monday!!  (dun dunn)

Awful handwriting translation:
"4-10, 10:00 a.m.

This has been scrawled on whatever paper I could find in my purse for the sake of emphasizing the way that being bored goes hand-in-hand with being a minor at a quiet restaurant table in the infamous and all-too-familiar Thunder Valley Casino in Northern California.

And, as always, a visit here simply demands a visit to the casino gift shop.  And, well, bash on Sanrio all you want, but here's no denying the way that the store tends to fill up in the local mall by children and adults-interested-in-cutesy-wutesy-things alike, or the way Sanrio merchandise seems to appear in almost every store.  So maybe I shouldn't have been so surprised as I was to see Hello Kitty and Chococat gracing the casino gift shop shelves with their cheery colors.  It's a CASINO GIFT SHOP, PEOPLE.  Sanrio's wrath remains ever merciless.  Holding the price tags to the light to see the orginal price behind the little Thunder Valley stickers, I rel realized that the prices of these goods ranged from a 50% discount from store price to a whopping 100% inflation.  Yet, the apparent awkward spaces on the shelves depicted that people were buying, and the casino effort wasn't in naught.  As well as the way that I bought a keychain, pencil, plush doll, and sticket pack.    I thought I was getting 50% discount prices, until I peeled off the price sticker from the plush doll, and saw a suspicious line drawn in pen behind the sticker to make 4.99 look like 14.99 in the light.  Casino gift shop owners are wily bastards."

On Monday, maybe it was the fresh air and the re-introduction to the mystical outside world, but I had a flashback of the person I used to be.  And I liked it.

Tuesday!! (dun dun dunnnn)

I went to Arden Mall with my mom, and after mucho shopping, achieved a dream that I'm been thirsting for since I first moved to Sacramento and watched KCRA3 News every morning before school.  I went to the KCRA Experience.  I made cameo appearances on TV like how when you watch the Today Show, people would be behind the barrier waving at the camera.  I ate some of the strawberry crepes that they made, which was nice, and my mom is now bent on me making those.  And a random tidbit is that , KCRA reporter, seems a lot more aged in person.  In a delicate way, it wasn't as great as I thought it'd be.  >.<;

Afterwards, I was taken to the house that my parents were fixing, and after accidentally hitting my finger with the hammer, I was sent back to the car, where I finished reading Nights in Rodanthe (and yes, like what generally happens with Nicholas Sparks' work, i cried), and then got REALLY BORED before napping.  So here's a photo tour of my experience.. IN THE CAR. (it's such a wild life i live!)

 
Nifty bird from outside that made its place in the shelves.



Nicholas Sparks makes a guest appearance!!  =OOO

 
THE MAGICAL BOTTLE OF WATER THAT I WAS DRINKING

Bags from the mall.  Yesh, that is Sephora, Godiva, and Victoria's Secret.  xD  AND MR. SPARKS MAKE ANOTHER CAMEO omg
 

And last but not least.. Keroppi chilling in style in the backseat.

Godspeed, y'all.

Today's lesson: Look at the sky, take a deep breath, and feel alive.

but touch my tears with your lips and touch my world with your fingertips

Bye for now.

Taboo: (n)   1. object, word, or act prohibited due to social or emotional custom.  2. a delicious ban disobeyed by society every single day

Dude.. life is hella weird sometimes.

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Yooo.

This week is Spring Break for me, while I know that everyone in San Jose has STAR testing this week.  GOOD LUCK YOU GUYS!  :]  STAR testing on my side is next week.  Gawd.  I'm a little worried.  >.>;;  I so bombed the practice tests. 

Unfortunately, I'm not going to San Jose this week.  Hot damn.  Sorry dudes.

Lisa Le is now my long-distance exercise partner, haha!  "OK, Christa, we're going to do 50 jumping jacks!  Ok.. start.. now!"  She's bunches of fun, though I MIGHT HAVE TO KICK HER ASS ..for nothing more than poops and giggles. 

I'm being a lazy bum so I'll update a REAL update.. eventually.  Rawk on, all of you.

And good luck to everyone who needs it.  You all know who you are.

Today's lesson quote: "The tide was coming in, and the first images of lightning began to register on the distant horizon, making the world outside flash, as if someone were taking photographs in hopes of remembering this night forever." -Nicholas Sparks, Nights in Rodanthe

don't wake me; i plan on sleeping in

Bye for now.

You look at yourself differently when seen through the eyes of a friend, an enemy, a lover.  I've now realized that I've been seen through all three.  I've seen all three. 

When perfection is flawed, the "everything" takes everyone by the throat.

This is for you.

Perfect: (adj) 1. Complete. 2. Flawless.

Completion is flawless.  Completion is perfection.  The person who finally is complete.. is perfect.

It all makes sense.

Heyy.

Yesterday was pretty nifty.  I went out with my dad to explore the town, and came across the... something something Granite Regional Dog Park and went out of the car and looked around.  There, beyond the grand fountain, was a family of ducks.  Driven by my adolescence and my giddiness, I ran towards them.. and tried to feed them.  Of course, while I assumed that they were fighting over the little cookie I threw in the water, oh, how wrong I was.  They were battling for a female to mate with.  After some trauma, I ran towards my father and screamed, "DADDYY, LET'S GO HOME!!"  My maturity is impeccable, I swear.  After we got lost looking for the flea market, we went to Target and bought cheesesteak sandwiches. 

Drama.  It's high school, where drama refuses to cease.  And somehow, I'm jumping straight into it.. completely voluntarily.  It's complicated.

Mandy presented me with a question that got me thinking the rest of the day, considering how the question came across my mind before.  It's on a topic I'm probably far too immature in, the kind that someone in their twenties or thirties would come to my face and laugh at me.  But I made sure for so long to never throw words to the wind.  I wonder if I meant what I said.  I wonder if I'll follow through.

One of these days, we'll see.

Today's lesson: Look forward.

someday, somebody's gonna ask you the question you should say "yes" to once in your life; maybe tonight, i've got a question for you

Bye for now.

Hellooo.

Ar ar ar.

Today (or um, according to xanga clock, yesterday) was April Fool's Day.  In celebration, I've learned that THERE WILL BE A SIMPSONS MOVIE FINALLYYY.  It'll be coming out in June 2007, and is right now in uber early production.  I'm counting the days, people.  Just counting the days.

I admit now that I'm guilty of the placement of double-standards on the world.  I'm guilty of saying: "I am better than you. You're wrong, and I'm right."  It's almost horrible.

On another note entirely, I want to buy a fish and a hermit crab named Marlon Brando and a pig and chicken s and have some sheep graze in my backyard, mingling with the sheep dog and cats.  xDD

I haven't had an intelligent conversation in a while.  It's not anyone around me, it's that I've been proving myself as rather dumb lately.  Haha.  The teenage emotions and immaturity is inevitable and overcoming.  I've been reading up on some of Vienna Teng's blogs, full of colorful words and meaning while letting me know of her music and updated, which is becoming refreshing.  If I get Alzheimer's from the lack of brain exercise, I'm shooting someone.   >_<

Speaking of exercise, I've been getting fat since Phys Ed ended at school.  I finally lost twenty pounds since the start of the school year only to eat at Burger King and Jack in the Box and be able to poke a chubby belly again.  Arrrr.  Damn you biceps, I'll be able to push-up yet!

Today's lesson: Come to terms with yourself before you dare try to fix anything else.

give this love of ours a try, and have a little faith in me

Bye for now