Hey.

Psshh.  Phuc all having me update regularly again.

(The following gives my blog the illusion that it is longer than it really is.)
Mood? Strange--content, yet longing for something.  Yes, I know that's contradicting.  That's why it's strange.
Thoughts? 'That boy is crazy.' 
Loving? The way fate has been blessing me lately.  Fine, there's been a bunch bunch bunch of cons, but dude.  The good times make it all worth it.
Hating? >.< How Bronecky's in my Theatre group.. omg.. he's so anal..
Missing? I think we all know who is the answer to this question.  Him, and also noodles.  Oh, how I miss noodles..
Wanting? Enlightenment.  Oh, how one always does.
Listening? Nada Surf - Always Love
Quote? "Women, if the soul of the nation is to be saved, I believe that you must become its soul." -Coretta Scott King

It's still shocking when people that you wouldn't THINK would be very deep and philosophical prove you wrong from every vantage.  The soul that jokes with you and pokes fun at you one day, asks you to remove your mask of joy the next day to show who you really are.  I continue to be amazed. 

On that note, the masks of mankind continue to be worn.  All of us are hyprocrisy and emotion, but no one knows the wiser.  Aung San Suu Kyi once said, "It is part of the unceasing human endevour to prove that man can transcend the flaws of his own nature."  Perhaps this mask is the flaw that people overcome with tears and sincerity.  Perhaps the mask is the very remedy to the flaws of stigmatic emotion and false hope.  Who knows?

I travel that journey that she speaks of everyday, never ceasing.  Perhaps, I will be on that journey all my life.

Today's lesson: If the stray's all alone, starving, crying, lonely, ignored, broken, breathless, and dying.. give it a home.

your life is just a choice, but i never learned enough to listen to the voice that told me, "always love.. hate will get you every time."

Bye for now.

Helloooo!!

Who hasn't been writing in for a bit of a while?  (Mee.)

Today = groovy day.  Brief summary: Burrito place (w/ mucho mooching), Ben & Jerry's, Museum of Art, Borders, and Lollicup in the world of the not-so-unknown.  (Do you like my cryptic code?)  Afterwards, hit the mall w/ the fabulous three.  Then to Pasta Pomodoro w/ the sister and brother.  Fun fun fun.

Note: I am a flawed attempt to make everyone in the world happy and joyous.
Note #2: "Yo' Momma" jokes aren't so horrible after all.
Note #3: Sugar, we're going down.
Note #4: I believe.  If that counts for anything at all to you.

Note #5:  <3 Three, kids. Three.  If any of you get it at all.

Fight the power that defies you.

Today's lesson: You can't help everything, but to hope for everything can make all the difference.

it's somehow elusive.. how swiftly we choose it

Bye for now.

Hey.

I was going to offer a "real entry" about what I did today, with the signature lengthy rant and all.

And then I realized that I'm lazy.

So here's my day right here.

Gomen, Phuc-kun. GRACIAS, meh ninoamigo de .. lion.

Today's lesson: When words are not enough, silence will do just fine.

i'm trying my best for my beautiful man

Bye for now.

i know that other girls don't need to feel rich
but i do.. i do.
that's why i choose to spend my life doing this,
'cause i knew.. i knew
we've got something here inside
that others just imagine they can buy

make it a date, tell me when
and i'll say but sure as life will end
I'll love you ever and after
let's both run away
find a place to live where we'll stay
we'll make a better way
I'll love you ever and after
Our love can make disaster fade away

and if time tries hurt you, it just won't get to
i will protect you, keep you beautiful
run away, and come with me
let's hurry; come quickly!
'cause we've got something here, that other people envy
other people fear

i don't need the double standards,
all i need is you and i'll get through

'cause sitting here
without a cent
i feel rich next to you..

I'll love you ever and after;
Our love can make disaster fade away.

Hello.

there are flowers in her hair; she's dancing, like an angel taking flight.

Biting off Phuc: TODAY'S SONG ISSS okay no I just CAN'T DO IT!! No jacking from his xanga today.

On another note!! Warning: Possible mushiness.

Your world changes. Your life's path suddenly swerving in a direction you never knew existed. You sacrifice without you even knowing it--it's not always rainbows and butterflies; it's compromise, it moves us along. Yet it is flawless in its own magnificent way. You know, you know that nothing is perfect, yet everyday, you confirm the conviction that something in the world really might be. You're overwhelmed by how open you become, how earnestly honest are the words that spill out of your mouth as if it were fresh water sweet. It's almost like an addiction. A gripping longing that forever isn't impossible and destiny does exist. Is that how it's supposed to be? Because that's how it sure is for me.

How one loves the pillow talk.

Clingy is unattractive?!  Oh god.  Then I must be ooglay.

Today's lesson: I've figured it out--I'm missing you.  I never knew that you never left.

 do you miss me too?  baby, say, "i miss you."  just say you miss me too.

Bye for now.

Happy birthday to Chocolate.  =)

Heyyy.

For kicks:

Mood? Nostalgic.
Thoughts? 'OH GOD IT'S CLAY AIKEN'
Loving? CD markers.  And Wikipedia.
Hating? When CD markers run out of ink!  And my expanding waistline!  But oh god, food tastes so good!
Missing? Nuu oneee.. okay, maybe Phuc..
Wanting? Ice cream.  YES, in the middle of winter.
Listening? Okay, I'm going to be honest with you, and I may or may not be ashamed of this fact: Clay Aiken - The Way
Quote? "True love has no happy ending, for true love has no ending." -anonymous

The hardest thing to do is to stick together.. friends, family, relationships, marriages..  It's like resisting gravity.  But you can, and we have, and we will.

The way that the world goes is interesting.  I'll say that much.  People become loathed by people they don't even flippin' know (guilty, i am the loather rather than the loathee at the moment), and your perception of everything completely changes.  High school can do that, I'm guessing.  It's introduction to a new place where something new becomes your oxygen.  Scandals are just as important as grades nowadays.  People more and more have their lusts quenched, their need for gossip even moreso, and it's few and far apart that a person manages to play a blind eye to the social ladder.  I'm lucky to be one to only watch, instead of the one watched.  But then again, you never know..

"I feel guilty about the celebrities I read about in tabloids because they don't know a single scandalous secret about me."

the moon is a mirrorball
light flickers across the hall
who'll catch the star when he fall?

The irony is impeccable and mindblowing.  Life changes in a few years as well as it can in a moment.  You do things you said you'd never do.  You become the person you said you would never become.

I have questions unanswered, and I want answers!

OH GOD, THE FRUSTRATION!

Today's lesson: Some things, you shouldn't get too good at.. like smiling, crying, and celebrity.

i've been good, because i know you don't want me to.

Bye for now.

Hey, folks.

The new re-realization: Gaming is addicting.  I've finally got my Gamecube working again, and I've started playing my birthday present: Metriod Prime 2.  And I have to admit this much: I have not used the words "shiznap" and "bee-yotch" as much in my entire life as I have while playing that game.  What?  I was highly surprised when everyone got undead on my butt.  I had cared for those people and was earnestly concerned, and then they try to kill me?!  I think not!

Now on a different note, deeper and more typical of me just as much the general eccentricity of mines, I've learned a remarkable amount in the span of the last number of days.  The stupidity of mine's--seeing myself in its most pathetic, acknowledging all of the cons but partially choosing the tiny number of pros of a situation.  I should slap myself.  And then witnessing the Balance--the downfall of relationships and friendships alike if not found.  The dreams with morals are intense.

I know so very very little.

Today's lesson quote: "Self-sacrifice requires more investigation, for self-sacrifice is an unreasonable act."

you've just between who you are and who you want to be

Bye for now.

Good morning.

First off, happy birthday to Cactus.  =)

Without anyone knowing, he gave me a present today.  Yet another to add on the list of actions of his that I cannot top for SHIZZZ`.  DD  I speak gangsta!  Hahah.. no.  I'll try to never go there ever again, but no promises.

Delicate events lead into catastrophic situations that become the fine line between enlightenment and the temptation to commit double-homocide.

Rough events, however, prove delightful in their own special way.  Two thumbs up.  Haha.

Unexpected events are uncharted territory.  If I had a glass to clink, I would clink it right now in a merry, "Cheers."

Today's lesson: Find the balance.

I'm more gangsta than Phuc is!

Bye for now.

Happy birthday, Katie Couric!!!!!

(and to me!  )