It's okay to just wing it.

Hello, world.

It was weird today, when I looked around my school, at the people surrounding me, and realized that I loved the place I was currently in.  My classes (and my after school activities) have good people, great people, and it blows me away.  I do think that my Biology group deserves acknowledgement.  They were "F" students, did nothing but copy and fail tests.  Then I would NOT give up on these people because Nic, a kid that should've been on the J.V. football team but had bad grades, actually tried, but everyone shrugged him off; borrowed my notebook now and then to study my notes when not obligated to and he asked me to give him tips on test-taking and always seeked clarification for what he didn't understand.  Today, they did everything on their own, finished first in class without any of my help, and were so astoundingly proud of themselves.  They're all "C" students (and rising) now.  They're very groovy.  And the play, don't even get me started on the cast of the play.  I'm confused on whether my role in the school play is "stage manager" or "official groupie".  I just adore them.  They're such fantastic people.  I can't even describe.

I sold myself out and became a temporary paragon of evil through an urge.  I will not be surprised if my life becomes ruined.  And I will not break, nor will I fall.  I deserve what I'm going to get, and I'm going to try my best to not crumble under the weight of the world against me.

PEOPLE, THERE IS SOMETHING YOU ALL NEED TO UNDERSTAND!
Life is hard.  Deal with it.
I can't deal with it.  I can't understand.  PFFFFFT.

And I greatly recommend Janet Tashjian's "The Gospel According to Larry" and "Vote for Larry."  SO GOOD!  I finished "Vote for Larry" in one sitting.  "The Gospel..." is about an 17-year-old boy, Josh, that's secretly a online guru; he blogs online about anti-consumerism under the alias of "Larry", the website becomes nationally famous--thousands of hits a day, riots against consumerism start occuring throughout the country because of him, and even Bono becomes a fan of his site and involves in a concert in dedication to Larry.  However, no one has ANY clue that Josh is "Larry," not even his father or his best friend.  Very cool.  "Vote for Larry" is the sequel, in which Larry runs for President.  Oh, yes.

Today's lesson: You're hella cool.  Yes, YOU. 

it feels so much colder when you cry on your own shoulder

Bye for now.