September 15, 2005
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"Did anyone take the time to tell you that you're disgusting?" she told me.
I replied, more concerned with my untied shoelace than I was with her, "No. No, they haven't."
She stuck her nose up, a little like those French cooks that I see often on the telly, "Well, someone should."
"But you don't even know me," I said, still eyeing that shoelace, dangling like bait for a playful kitten.
"Should I?" she almost spat out, me contemplating whether it was sarcasm or if everything she said sounded like that.
"Yes, and you can tell me I'm disgusting afterwards," I looked up from my shoelace to offer a smile. A polite one, if nothing else, and I ended the scene with a confident:
"Hello."
(because the traditional "hey" or "yo" was starting to bore me. THAT'S REINNOVATION FOR YA!)
Okay, damn it, I broke my streak of, "Going to rehearsals every single day to show my dedication as the stage manager!" today. I recently bought the first season of House, MD.. and well.. I--I really wanted to watch it, okay?! St-stop looking at me like that! It's a great show! And that Hugh Laurie is a genius actor! (::in radio voice:: House nominated for five emmys including Hugh Laurie nominated for best actor in his role as Dr. Gregory House. Catch the emmys on CBS on Sunday, September 18th at 8/7c! neat sidenote--
And The One Campaign commercial is up for "Outstanding Commercial"!) Anyone else that's watched House knows what I'm talking about. C'mon.
Some San Jose-ians have updated their xangas, even if only briefly (some being just Lisa, Linda, and Ashley. ::cries a little:: oh, and sam. almost forgot she got a new xanga cos' she's groovy). Thank you. AND THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT (of the rants that even i find myself tired of every now and then)! Whoo, three whole comments on my last entry. I feel like I'm hella special. Why yes, I know that people reading this probably get like a million eProps per entry, but I DON'T CARE! I want to you all to know that I acknowledge and I appreciate those comments will all my heart! ::sniff:: I feel like I'm House and I just won an emmy.
My last few days, the short version:
-became anti-rabbit killing
-became a deviant
-chose the former over the latter mostly cos' of a spiffy dude that should now feel warm and gooey inside like cheese fondue
-found myself wanting to kill my upper body strength, but there isn't any to shoot
-read a b--
Wait, I almost forgot. I'm anti-short versions. I rant. That's why people find me annoying (that and because i'm bad with people and i talk to myself). I can't believe that slipped my mind.
Recited/characterized a memorized poem in Theatre in front of the class. We all know that I'm usually the least comfortable when I'm around people that I'm comfortable with (confused? yeah, me too) so now that I'm starting to know my Theatre classmates, nerves struck with this assignment. On the first read, I forgot half the poem and had to improv on my lines. Then, yesterday, when I presented "the character version", where you really need to put emotion as if you were on a TV show or the whatnot, my heart was pounding and my hands were shaking. What did I do? I yelled. Yep. I yelled my poem with tones of emotion in a psychological means to scream my nerves away. People jumped in their seats and everything. AND SO WHAT HAPPENED, YOU ASK?! 4/4 rubric across the board and highest grade in my class! Chyeah. This is one helluva stage manager.
Club Rush was today and, to humor Pinouchee and to be in a club at all besides Drama Club at least, right when I thought I stepped safely away from the remarkable anime scene and could go on with a sane life w/o the chasing of manga, anime, and Jap-wannabeing, I signed up for and joined the anime club. That plus the deviant art thing sparked a new joy for drawing that I haven't experienced in a year or so, and that'll be spoofing too now. Yes. Spoofing.
Maybe I'll stop now. This ranting thing is getting to out-of-hand. Someone might get hurt! Nooo!
Today's lesson+photo (because i can, dammit): In the real world, emotions not mattering is a complete lie.
From left to right: Chocolate, Ashley, Daniel, Joeve, and Lisa
(to reassure you that no, i've not forgotten about you. don't worry!)
Cos' it's a lie that emotions don't matter
and I miss you guys (& the ones not in this photo, too) ..I really do..
and thank the gods for my new friends to get me through the day.
it takes a second to fall in love, but it takes years to know what love is
Bye for now.